Friend:
I'd pick up the phone to call you but I know that you're not home
you're out with someone special while I sit here all alone
I'd dedicate a song to you to try and make you see
and you'd hear it and ignore it or just think "he can't mean me"
I'd sing a song out in the rain to wash away your frown
but I know that you'd just laugh it off and say I'm such a clown
Then when I bring you roses and a poem that I wrote
I'd be lucky if you thanked me with a friendly little note
every time you've needed me I've been there with a smile
occasionally reminding you my friendship is worthwhile
I've never been first on your list, it seems I'm always last
even though I've helped you out when all the others passed
Time and time again I've tried to show you that I care
but not once have you noticed, is the passion just not there?
I'd like to say I love you and I will until the end
but deep inside the secret lies, because I know I'm just a friend
I'm always just a friend.
- - Nemo me impune lacessit - -
it's a new year...are you going to change things about yourself because of that? If you are, why didn't you start those changes like a week or two ago? Surely you probably knew about your "problems" then. If you're not going to change, you've probably reached the pinnacle of perfect haven't you? Yeah right...
There's always something you can improve about yourself...if you're not improving yourself, start today...if you are, keep it up...if you've made new years resolutions, tack on an extra one: "To not give up."
Now, let me tell you something that you should know. If you are wishing for something that you really want, what ever it may be, you're not going to get it by just sitting on your butt and doing nothing! So stop being so depressed about your dreams not working out the way you wanted because it's nobody's fault but your own. You build up this fantasy world in your head in which you have COMPLETE control over it...and in this world, all of your dreams come true because that is your will. But WAKE UP!!! That's not how reality works! If you take an inactive role in pursuing your desires, if you run away from or ignore opportunties, if you distance yourself from the people that really love you, and/or if you give in to your weak willpower, you will remain static and will never get what you want! For your own sake, just reach out and touch someone!
I know what I need to do to get what I want: Not care. Why should I? I know what I want, I just need to take it. That simple. It maybe too late to apply this, maybe not, I just need to take it 1 step at a time. A 100,000 mile journey seems impossible by foot, but if you deny your ability to even try, then you have already failed. In enlightenment of this new found information, I'm not angry, nor am I happy. My spirit died, and I am accepting reality. All of the tough times in my life seem like a game, where I have to answer questions as I go. Maybe I just haven't really been put in a TOUGH situation, or maybe they were infact hard but I completed them with ease. I don't know. It is amazing how much harder people put thing on themselves than normal, and more amazing how something so easy can become so difficult as a result. Just stop caring and you'll get what you desire, eventually
